Ancient Hearts .... Modern Minds

The stars lean down to kiss you

And I lie awake and miss you

I'll watch the night turn light-blue

But it's not the same without you

The silence isn't so bad

'Til I look at my hands and feel sad

'Cause the spaces between my fingers

Are right where yours fit perfectly.... ( Something that just does not fit in here )

 

Perfectly Dressed Up with batches shining in a row on my left chest , ( 4 of them ) I think about it all once again . Can I? I leave  , I reach , I Speak , I win . Inter school debate competition It was and I won by the best of mysterious lucks . This doesn’t feel that good as described by others in their success stories. Because I have not felt it perfectly well or maybe that this is not what I was really wishing for . Dellima . Yes it is . Anyways. This isn’t the perfect topic on which I had planned to write . But my ideas keep flickering in and out of existence like fireflies. I have an ancient heart and a modern mind .

Another awesome thing which I went through recently was the competition . Yes. I have faced it earlier too . but this time it was between two unpredictable parties. One was the unaware and lame me and the other went like the craziest hell of my best friend. And what was it for ? The attention  of the society. Maybe I get it too much or IMMA HELL ! I prefer not thinking about it but maybe I think I have it all . Self obsession they term it . :P Never thought that this would happen off my butts but fine. Everything can happen when your on the fringes of the modern world . That too this way.

I was Born this way. That is the song that I have learned to play on the guitar 2 days back . and I leave no chance to show off my skills at that whenever anybody’s round . I cant help it . Maybe you can :D   The topic Is changing so quickly . Even facebook doesn’t change its primordial settings that way. Am sorry for that . But my age speaks of that style. Am young and am confused.

Now on another thing. Desi Boyz. The movie was worth it . J I liked it anyways. We went off for an early morning 9 am show . The best part went with the cute little boy . I just wont comment. Some parts did feel awkwad for we had male counterparts on our group too but it went Swift .. J

PS – Chitrangada Singh was way too superb :!!!

Anyways… Summing up every single bit happening all around.. Life is moving on. So what if sometimes its without the Happiness .

Saari zindagi koi chicken roll pe thodi jee sakta hai .. ? ! J

+  Life is not served to you hot and marinated

You have to carve it out of pieces of love and hatred…

LIGHTS OUT !!

A Nightmare...

I seem to be looking into my own eyes

They have been forced to mask the solemn cries

In them I see the reflection of a dark night

When my mind decided to skip the light bright

After that the nights had never been alone

Something followed me like a dog sticks to a bone

Everything was like a melody in my head

Be it things falling apart or people going dead

In that disgrace I walked into another fever

The road of life was one less lonely forever

I stole by lawns and grassy plots

And I slided by hazel covers

I moved the sweet forget me nots

That grew for happy lovers

Long came the shivering Lake drive

Nothing seemed better than a death dive

And suddenly apart the feeling was uprooting

I was abandoned half relieved half drooping

I had got a truth newly found

Grace , Disgrace nothing had bounds

All that I had been into was daydreaming

Nothing was hot neither was it fuming …. !!!

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Misconceptions !

This ones for those who think a girl lives in perfect cleanliness ! I am an exception ! The picture depicts my room ! am Awesome place ! Windy . Lovely . Comfortabel , COzy but yet soo DIRTY ! my mother has gone crazy telling me to clean it ! But i simply WONT ! Coz i like it just the way it is ! Books loaded up on top of that Glasses of water :P On top Of that Papers ! Flying into your eyes as soon as you enter @ You may dissaprove of it ! But i love it Just the way it is ! Agree Or not ! :D <3

Resolutions 2020

 Back to writing ! Yet another time . Its like i cant resist it . Feeling are overwhelming and memories are being created every single day now ! Times have changed as if ! Suddenly my wolrd turns happier and in a second its lonelier .
Revolution 2020 ? thats the name of the latest Chetan Bhagat book right ? And many of yew might think that i have mistaken the name. Well it does fit the way you figure it everytime . Does it ?
Its actually about RESOLUTIONS ! Those which we have taken.  To make our own lives ..
Dont get it ? Right  ! Here's the story.......... The first term went on with perfect peace of mind . Away from studies , Always on Bunks, Lined up @ the canteen or as usual  using our MINISTER batches for nothing else but the sake of roaming ! But exams came soon ; and before we could realise they were climbing on us. NIGHTMARES ! Passed them anyhow !
And the worst thoughtS ever  ! The results are out ! Half the class has failed off!  I passed though with flying colours but comparitively even i could not do that well !
First day ; Every body was disheartended , Lost into their own worlds !
Second Day ; Cursing teachers ! And the Marking Schemes !
Third Day ; Thinking away  KASH PADH LIA HOTA YR!
Fourth day ; ITNI MEHNAT SE BANAI HUI IMAGES TEACHERS PE ! SAB BIGAD GAI NA :P
Fifth Day ; Chalo Chodo ! AB TERM 2 ! PHOD KE RAKH DENGE !

Thats where the kahani stated ! Plannigs , Strategies , Making of EXTRA bful Notes ! , How to Carry on all this along with Our band practices and Dnce performances. Debates Fights ! And we all finally agreed on a stupid resolution which was never to be taken seriously !
These were signed by - Garima Chauhan , Niharika Ballani , Akshita Pawar , Shourya Dubey , Kajal Maheshwari , Aditi singh Chandel , Anju Andrews , Adhishree Verma , Shreya E Paul , Soumya Warrier , Shreya Bramhe , Aayushi Nigam , Areeba Sajid and of course ME ! Aditi Pandey !
Resolution No 1 - WE'LL STUDY EXTREMELY WELL THIS TIME
Of course we will ! Until and unless nobody tells us that Exams are excesivvely over the heads ! :P THis is a Name sake thing ! 2-3 Days we all will follow ! Next day ! LEAVE IT ! CAN WE ? ;)

Resolution No 2 - WE WILL NEVER SLEEP IN A GEOGRAPHY CLASS
This was my best one ! Geography class and we cannot resist the Aweosme aweosme meethi meethi neend ! * SNOOZE OFF * and best part . We do it turn by turn . Pehle tu sole  Fir main ! :P Cooperation is something we never skip on on such things ! Not sleeping in a geo class. Seemed impossible ! But we have decided to do that by clipping our eyelids with paper clips on to the forehead :P Even that wont help ! But we never have to pay any tax in sayin it . Nai ? :P

Resolution No 3 - WE WILL NEVER ESCAPE A PHYSICS CLASS BY SHOWING OUR DEPUTY MNISTER BATCHES AND SAYING " MAM WE HAVE THIS THIS WORK FOR THIS THIS QUIZ TO BE HELD BLAH BLAH BLAH
That has got to be the toughest one ! Have never been able to resist a physics class ! She Cooks me to the level 11 ! And more over whatevver i know she confuses me on that also ! And in the end we are like . KYA BOL KE CHALI GAI YE ?
But we are going to do this one too ! For atleast 5-6 calsses or till the mid of this term !

Resolution No 4 - WE WILL MAITAIN A PROPER NOTES COPY FOR EVERY SUBJECT
From scribbling away in whatevar little crap of paper we get to a fully new designed decorative nerd type notes copy ? Unimaginable ! But we the people of IX -C accpeted that too ! Becuz in the  end who wins the lost battles of exams is the Note wali Bandi ! Will try to catch up on this on too ... TOUGH ONE THOUGH IT IS ;)

Resolution No 5 - WE WILL NOT SEE THE KHIDKI KE BAAHAR KE NAZARE
Although all thats visible outside our classroom waali khidki is The school campus unlike the lucky ppl who see the main market through theirs ; But still we the awesome people cannot resist that too ! We find a charm even in that Simple Mud playground , the Common room door and the Buses standing in a line ! Afterall Evertything and anything is more Enchanting than a Snaskrit class ! We will not get lost into our childhood by seeing those children or crack jokes on any random person walking out over there !
This one is simething i did not agree on ! Coz i know i simply cant do it ! :P


All these Resolutions ! All these Things ! Just for one goal ........ Term 2 ! CGPA 10 ! And regaining that BEAUTIFUL IMAGE of ours on the minds of teachers !
Take it my way and i will say  - THERES NO NEED TO DO ALL THIS ! I CAN CONTINUE WITH ALL OF THEM AND STILL DO WHAT ULTIMATELY HAS TO BE ! But because they wanted me to be there . I was there! Doing Sheer Madness !
Who follows , What follows , How many days , And the final result !
All on god ! Help kro bhai ! My current Attention is on the up coming Performance of ours ! Its gonna be SKILLET ALL OVER ! best of luck to all our Guitarists , Drummers, Sythesizer , Violin ,and Sitar  players and Vocalists ! <3 Better stick to your Resolutions All of YEW ! DARE NOT GO OFF THE TRACK  ;) Lolz ! :P

Someone Special ..........

Umm , Am back to Blogging and this time in a shorter period ( :P ) Could Not Help. Ocaasions are many and Menmories don’t abandon any.  I do not know where exactly to start but this blog  is all  about being different . As its not about me but about another person……… Someone who matters to me more than Novels ,Music ,Chocolates  or any of my Most Random Loves Ever !!!

Good times, Bad times, the person was always there. Failures , Success , Happiness , Sadness , FestivaLS , Birthdays , Holidays , Workdays; the persons presence by my side has never been affected by any of these. It is Independent………. Of the society  of the state of mind or of any situation.

Enter Manu P Pandey…..  Wild , spontaneous and a Brother so good yew cant take your heart off of him .

12^th Oct 2011 ; Today this person turns 36 ! J Into his thirties yet nobody can win him @ Anything. He has been my favourite ever since I remember….

He turns 36 . Right? So here are 36 things all about him ……

1.         Cute as he is

2.        . Loving as I want

3.        Excessively Flaterring People ( As nobody wants :P )

4.        CraJy just like me

5.        Outstanding as he is expected to be

6.        Awesomeness fills his every part

7.        An aura of knowledge as noone else has

8.        A lively attitude

9.        A happie person more than the whole world can be

10.      Respecting @ heart

11.       Pranky @ the bar

12.      Sleeper coach person @ class ;)

13.      Fb lover @ all times

14.      Sci – fi @ mind

15.      Hi  - fi @ status

16.      Blowing minds @ one look

17.      Heart breaking @ yet another one

18.      Witty @ some points

19.      Movies Smitten @ every turn

20.     Taylor Swift hater as he has to be ( Sorry for this one :P )

21.      Marc Antony liker

22.     Lazy @ everyday

23.     Superlazy @ “Mornings “

24.     Hyper active @ Midnight

25.     The BEST person

26.     An enchating Writer

27.     Possesses an angelic smile

28.     Has small ; foxy eyes

29.     The PEOPLE’S person

30.     My English Guru

31.      An alluring creator

32.     A certified Geek @ in vogue things

33.     Techno crat @ Latest Technologies

34.     Innovative @ What he is  !

35.     Someone am JEALOUS of :P

36.     And MY INSPIRATION !

Yes .. !! That’s him . Somebody so undefined yet so Awesome , So unpredictable yet so enchanting , so lazy yet so intelligent ( :P ) . People like him have gone EXTINCT I suppose !

HAPPIE BUDDAY TO YEW Pandu Singh !  <3 Camilla Crajy Bwoy !  My all time  HOLA friend ^_^ .. Thanx for being there ALWAYS and ignoring KABHI KABHI . Laugh your heart out today !  Yew have  made me Happie @ uncountable times. And I wish to reciprocate it ! I do it or not yew gotta decide ~ But still Ur an ENIGMATIC @ heart ,.. !

Happie Birthday Again ! <3 J

And in the end ……….

Some songs.. all the way ….. For yew !

1 . Dildaara – ( My fav. Your fav …….. NO !!!!!!! that’s OUR fav J )

2 . Addicted – Enrique

‘3 . I’m into you – JLO

4 Just cant get enough – The black eyed peas

5 . Glad you came- The wanted

.  J

Ps…- I GOT STUCK WHILE WRITING THIS…. And its on my mind ! that yew’ll NOT like this  !

 THIS IS THE RANDOMEST COLLAGE EVER

AND THIS IS YOUR BETTER VERSION. MY ISHTYLE..........

:) Happie budday !!!

September 16, 2011 荃灣-煙火

I Am Me......

Summers passed away in perfect peace of mind. Just the kind that LIC of India ensures you. And fall has walked in with the same grace as always.  Well that’s the perfection of nature ; something that you and I have loved since ages

But whts new that adds to this glorious season of Fall is new Discoveries

People from all over the world , the farthest corner of my friend list have told me that I do mean something to them … One came and I nodded my  head the other came and I was just fine with it . Even the third came and I was like the ok ok types. But when the fourth came I could no more take it to be purely coincidential . And that was the spark. And the fire now says nothing more than I LOVE MYSELF !

I mean it goes like…. One day sumbody told me am great am nice. Next day sumone told am Cute .  9 That never means i take pride in my beauty ; I never do . Those who know me know this fact too ) And the next day  I was more than in love with myself. Coz half the people on my facebook friend list  had me on their profile pichas with them . Smiling away to glory. And I promising  each of them a great Freindship . And of course yes ! I do keep that promise . J  But never did I imagine during smiling for that pic that it would adore somebodys profiles other than me …. :P

The next mornig was awesome . It was something I would term as PICTURE PERFECT .  First I was in love with myself and to add to that ice cream of joy I had a topping of chocolate J

A gurl back from my previous school had tried to contact me since ages . She had joined school after I left it. My classmates who were then in great contact told me about her . I mean nothing great but yes they said shes nice. I finaly replied to her. And she was a box  full of anger as well as enthusiasm All she told me was that people there are always busy  talking about me .

And suddenly I realised that I am NOT forgotten . They still love me  J

Happiness had no bounds !

And still doesn’t have

I am in love with me . All over again J Self obsessed : x)

Just like Robert Frost does to nature I do it to myself

:D 

But I  Hope this Doesn NOT go on forever. Becauz whenver am high .. I always  land up doind something wrong in the end.  

Thanx and Tadaaa !  xD =)

Time passes and so do feelings . There was once a time when you roamed into the fields, taking in the fresh spring air and dancing with a spirit of joy . You created a new memory almost everyday  and had someone to cherish your worst fates .You had the imaginations of love , the winds of care, the fresh grass of passion , the nightangle of melodies and the skies of heights .. !

And now you’re here  ; in the lost world of betrayal . The spring breeze has given way to winters. The ever inspiring sky seems to have stopped , the fireplace of trust has been put out , the flowing river f happiness has frozen, the animals of fantasy put to hibernation.

The aura of knowledge still shines , but its within you. You don’t dare to trust it once again. The winds don’t carry the same laughter that was once emitted from within whenver you gave another answer to your friend . They carry just the solemn cries. Which came to you as a part and parcel of failure.

The dew drops on the feilds yield frost and your heart is inspired. The leaves of dreams which once bore on your tree of imaginations lie shaterred . Dry and stale.

The branches have been replaced by the cold snow of failure .

And you are the snowman of these winters of disheartening truths .  You stand there  ; ready to be rebuilt  with a new character .A new approach 

But what you need the most is a pair of hands…………….

Bollywood Repassionated !

After  having another of those music freak days am back to the normal lyf.. School days. Coaching days…. Guitar class days nd of course the loaded up homework days. Everything is back in place and so is another glorious thing!

I tend to get addicted to the world of western liliac music in the long boring holidys…. But everything has an end to it. And so has happened with my love for the western music. Normal life is back and so is my Love for Indian Music! Incredible India. Incredible Music. Whatever you do wherever you go ; one thing never leaves you and that is ur nationalism . Am an indain and being one I too tend to love the classic kinda things sumtym or the other …. Am on it ! Once Again!

Bollywood! The always ruling party in the govt of film making industries. From the oldest sufi hits to the latest rock songs Indian music has everything in it. And I love evry single tidbit. From the age of Kishore Kumar to the classic Mohhamad Rafi to the latter part of the 20^th century i.e. when bollywood music was taken onto by singers like K.K. sunidhi chauhan , shreya ghoshal to the newest age Pritam . Bollywood has its heart open for all,, Seek and you shall find……

Sufi… Classical …….. Qawalli…. Pop.. Rock……… It’s a my Kinda Party! Be it Munni Or Sheila bollywood has never let down the hopes of millions of beating hearts.

Search bollywood ! and you find ! the type ! the  like ! The passionate! Just the you type..  Afterall , For men may come and men may go but I go on forever . In this context .. Hollywood may come and Western may go But Bollywood Goes on Forever ! <3 <3

Choices.............

Passing every day of life with yet another jeer, I never think about the expectations of millions that link out to me through the bridge of intelligence. Just because what keeps me busy and going is the problem of Choice

Yes ! It is ! The right choice ! the perfect one ! That’s  what I demand for myself. For my career for; for my life. The choice which can either make my life in every aspect or spoil it completely. It’s a case of Do or Die. I never realised that what I linger over for so many hours daily is what we call making a choice before yesterday. When I read a poem by Robert Frost about the same problem . and it said that this phenomenon is what you call Choice.

Choices are millions to be made. Sometimes its just a 2 minute affair of choosing which chocolate you want to eat. Eat the chocolate and its finished while other times it’s a slightly bigger one like choosing between what to study ….. Maths or Physics……….:P  Or sometimes its much bigger like choosing which skills to brush up.. Guitar or Drums :\  but the ultimate thing is big or small .. Its you who has to choose.

Making choices between things is once again a choice. You have to make a choice just because you chose to go choosey and actually * choose * the right thing for yourself. Or you can also simply ask some random people and give up on it . Whats the big deal ! Right??

Problems adorn you at every step. They await you like you are the final destination. Send it away in seconds and simply turn it into sheer jeopardise or think away into your own world of paradise. Its you who once again * Chooses * Loosing your times simply thinking away stuck in the problem of choosing wont get you anywhere bt simply lead you to miss the moments of Jade ! Approach someone to help you.. because afterall every door that is closed is  not locked

Quoting from the bible – “ Ask and the door shall be opened unto you ; seek and you shall find’

The final destination ! Send it away or let it send you to a walk into your meadows. Go ! * CHOOSE *  <3 :D

                                     

I Miss Those Days ..............

Missing those days badly! :( :( :( :( :( :( When i woke up everyday with the hope of living up yet another day of life! With the excitement to reach school! with the hopes of meeting them people again. Really now i belive that Realisation comes only after Departure! The life now has changed itself in so many aspects! New goals , New hopes , New expectations and New freinds. But what leis deep within is still the dream to have those days again! To get to that easy lyf! To once again fly high underneath the roof of the school! Missing ya badly guys! :'(

MY BFF..........

After the summer vacation of 2009 we were back in school. I was new to the school so I had few freinds. I met my best freind when the so called class teacher seated me besides her. Our bench was the only in class with 4 people and whtz more is tht two of them were great fatsos.  :P we snuggled between those two fatsos and held on tight to prevent falling down.
Dayz passed and so passed away our innocence. From barely buddies we were now those who did besharam baatein. We knew all of each others secrets now and we promised that even if it happens that we are no longer freinds then too we are not gonna disclose our secrets to anyone!
we were soon famous throughout the class for our stupid talks , for our LOLs , for our sharing of tiffins in class and of course for our thumbnail arts! we were careless about the world. When we both were togehter we were just us! We often had fights and ya I obviously beat her up as she is small in size bt still she never said anything and just left. afterwards we were again freinds and she never told anyone from where she got those bruises .
She was innocent . She was cute . I still remember those sparkling eyes, tht lovely smile ,the golden brown hair and of course a naughty smile. I came into her life and destroyed it all together.
Due to me from a typical studious girl she was a fun loving one . I disturbed her studies I made her the one who knew all stupid wayz to do pranks bt was never sorry for tht and obviously never will be! coz ya am her best freind and I have the rights to do all tht .

Times passed and so passed those happy dayz . We were soon in 9th standard and we got reshuffled . We were separated. We still ate each others tiffins but not between classes , we still danced to the beat of baarati songs bt not hand in hand , we still studied  between classes but did not scribble in each others books we still had secrets but could not share it we still gave exams but did not do any cheating.
We are now again in our own worlds missing each others presence . we are connected to each other by cellphones by facebook by lil meetings  between classes and in breaks . But till when
Till when can all this be satisfying! All these things cant make up to the times of old dayz. All these cant match the times when we were togehter all time! during assemblies during classes during sports periods during practicals.
But yeah we have to forget these silly things and go ahead in life . Afterall life is full of changes and every change is a challenge . We have to prove that we are much stronger and those silly changes cant ruin us. So we are back on our own paths but yeah I still miss her every second and every moment of my life!!!!!!
it was you PAWAR JI  who changed my life! thnx a millions to you!

Failures

As I walk down the autumn lane
My heart is full of sorrow and pain
The confidence over me is no more there
I sit and at the winners I stare
A lonely feeling; a fishy glare
A heartless breathing; no one to care
Sleepless nights ; a soul to byte
You have to be clam and hold on tight
The curtain over the sadness is reveiled
Succes lies somewhere unrevealed
Concelaed is the stage and light
My future has nothing bright
Silhoutted above the moon I can see
Trophies with a smile and glee
When I made that decision was I  injudicoius
But for this I  was so solicitous
Curses ,bad words and cruelty is what I have to face
Trust me I tried my best to be the ace
As I sit on the lonely park bench
I wish  I could drown in a trench
But if I behave this way
Success will not have its stay
I have to get up and once again try
I guess I was not born just to cry
My mind says get up you have to reach to the moon
But my heart sinks down and survives the noon
The feel inside is anonymously low
Everyone turns a back and gives a blow
If I couldnt do it once doesnt mean am useless
It comes to me naturally ; restlessness
Day by day my soul it eludes
Look within yourself just to conclude
And in the end today theres no solution
What I need is your absolution
People am nothing more than a rebel
They call out that stupid libel
The noise inside is so obscure
It takes a long time for internal wounds to cure
Tired I am of this silly behaviour
These are the moments when comes to you failure..............












nother stupid poem!!!! ;)

WEAKNESSES.........

My heart is full of sorrow
Thats why happiness I have to borrow
The silence is what I  want to hamper
I need lots of love and pamper
Duno why I  alwayz fight
Still it seems to me a delight
But after that what happens is so questionble
And for it am alwayz creditable
I go home they go home
Afterwards its all a sad dome
All seems so desolate
Still no one tries to exhilarate
All I  feel is simply awful
But within my heart i know that i was the one who was flawful
Whatever I do I  am ambiguous
Pepople think am caligenous
Why am I alwayz considered wrong
Do you think that for wars i long
The side effects of a temper are alwayz leige
My colour keeps changing from pale to beige
I wish our friendship is alwayz in permanance                                                                                             But it doesnt happen as others have the feeling of discontinuance
Unknown to me is the world of levity
All i know is simply solemnity
In this silence audible is nothing save a palpitate
Listen to it and it will irritate
So guyz.......
Wateva you wanna do with me do till am alive
Coz someday even I have to die
And that day even if one of you cry
All sorrows from my heart will fly
I would like to put a  full stop now
Before you all forever I bow
Theres no way out of this restlessness
But still as you and i know
Theres a better place than this Emptiness.................................











It was once again  a foolish attempt to write  a poem ! bt stilll..................................................................................................................

DREAMZ.............................

a poem frm d bottom of my heart

One day across the bay
 I will be special in every single way
I will be succesful and strong
People who laugh will be proved wrong
I will have my own hub
Those who are grubby will get nothing more than  a snub
The place where I'll be will be more than a paradise
So good that others will try to jeopardise
I will forget the times of jade
And hunt the world and simply navigate
I will be free and will have nothing to fear
No people to simply come and jeer
I wish to become just impregnable
Not the usual so assailable
People should not say that am unstable
But should praise me to be so palpable
I dont long to be so obnoxious
Nor the one who is too astrocious
I wish to be the star ;the one who is ineffable
And not so easily understandable
And not to forget my highest wish is to be as i am or to say immutable
And not be called incommensurable
But the opportunities given to everyone are not equal
And everyone does not get to follow the sequel
Some people have to concede, conciliate and compromise
While others simply grab the prize
In this rush some dont get to see the twilight
While others are the centre of spotlight
I wish that i shall incarnate
The feelings of love;peace and not hate
Well to my wishes there is no end
But I still wish to break a trend
Beacause afterall my friend
Life is not served to you hot and marinated
You have to carve it out of pieces of love and hatred!!!!!!!





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